I was so excited about my first three posts. I had blogged here days in a row, I was happy with what I had written, and I felt like I was learning.
Then Sunday I hit a rut. I knew what I wanted to write, but I didn't know how to put it into words. When my husband talked it through with me, I realized I was still having a hard time wrapping my head around what humility is...how to define it...what it looks like.
So I didn't post at all that day…day four and I already missed a day. And almost every post since then has been posted a day late and back-dated. I guess this series is appropriately titled Learning Humility.
I am very much learning humility as I write...actively learning it.
Learning that I need to pray and pray and pray for wisdom as I write on this difficult topic.
Learning that I need to ask for wisdom and proof-reading and help when I don’t understand.
Learning that I need to accept grace and grace and grace again for myself in this challenge.
Learning that I cannot pour out if I haven’t first received, because giving people myself is not worth it.
Learning that humility is so much more complex than I first thought.
Learning that past success doesn’t guarantee present success.
Learning that being humbled is just as painful every single time, but it’s just as worth it every single time.
Learning that I am struggling to complete my posts for this series not because I have a two month old baby, but because I’m not being disciplined with my time or commitment…and that is humbling.
I’m learning a lot…actively learning as I write and live each day of this series. This topic is becoming intricately woven in my heart and mind each day I as I ponder and pray and study what to write. And that is wonderful and painful all at the same time. Because humility is hard, and something that must learned…actively.